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Apple of the EarthDeep underground
in a coffin of earth,
I fail to remember
which way is North,
enclosed in a space
with limited air -
there must be a way out,
I stretch my legs
from wall to wall,
hardly any distance
and push against
the rigid dirt
with my frail hands
until they hurt.
I push with my feet
as I push with my hands,
forcing the walls
to obey my commands-
screaming in terror,
afraid and alone,
hardly able to breathe,
but still able to moan,
I try to conserve
my air supply,
but soon break down
and begin to cry,
gasping and weeping,
six feet underground,
away from light,
away from sound,
I am smothered
and I fade to
dust and bones,
left to dissolve
into the dirt
under an ocean of
Drowning AmbitionDarkness surrounds me
and pulls me below
to the bottom of the lake,
a world I hoped I'd never know.
The water pressure rises
and chokes my mangled body.
My lungs are burning violently,
my vision blurred and foggy.
I'm pulled down and down endlessly,
plunging into the depths
by an evil force of nature
that has led to countless deaths.
Entangled in lunging seaweed,
my impaired legs have no use,
captured by the fingers, like my neck
that's caught in nature's noose.
I let my last convulsive breath
escape from my strained chest,
subconsciously preparing for
my spirit's final rest.
I choke and cough like the mortal I am,
making my struggle worse.
Water floods into my weak lungs
with vigorous force.
Shadows engulf the universe
and smother all feelings and sounds.
When the world fades to a vacant black,
I realize that I've drowned.
Drowning WishesI sink slowly to the bottom
of the shimmering lake.
The serenity prevents me
from staying awake.
I start to drift off,
surrounded in bliss.
The water is sweet
like a soft, tender kiss...
The ground cracks open,
and so does the sky.
The water drains out
and my pleasure runs dry.
My lips are cracked,
swollen and red.
A woozy feeling
fills my head.
I cough up water,
mixed with blood.
I drag my legs
through dried up mud.
I wish for water.
I pray for rain.
Only a flood
could keep me sane.
My body gives up
before my heart.
The world around me
I slowly die
from overflowing desire,
watching everything burn
in eternal fire.
Confusion!You called me over, summoned me,
there was no reason why.
I couldn't talk or look at you
because I was too shy.
I answered questions quietly
and laughed at your small talk.
After we worked, I criticized myself
and grumbled as I walked.
Why was I so dumb? I asked myself.
I acted like I didn't want you there,
or was I way too obvious?
Which one is worse?
I hope I wasn't blushing. Did I stutter?
Did you notice
just how out of character I was just then?
My knees were weak, my voice was hoarse.
You must think I hate you...
I try to send my thoughts across the class.
I expect you to ignore me
like I 'ignored' you then, but alas
you just tell me how smart I am,
and ask to work with me again.
Only you can confuse me like this,
but if you're here, I can't complain.
Thank You.You crack the shells that are now 'me',
exposing what is underneath
with just one look from your two eyes;
before the shells grew I was quiet and shy.
When you return me to that state,
I rise so high (like my heart rate)
as you give me feelings I never knew
before I fell for you.
The gazes you give cause something to unlock
and my brain seems to stop like an old broken clock.
A feeling that's closer to nausea than fear
radiates when you are near.
The heat that rises from inside of me
melts my dormant memories,
creating currents and crafting seas,
somewhere where 'we' won't cease to be.
I listen to songs of bittersweet flings,
of broken hearts and other things.
I've never been happy until I met you,
but I don't know if you feel it too.
I want you to be happy, though it sounds cliché
and love is never child's play.
I'll stop myself if it's for the best,
and for having this chance I now know I am blessed.
I started my engine a little too fast.
I blew out my tires and finished in last.
After the race I received no prize.
I left the stadium, tears filling my eyes.
I walked all the way home right after the race
To stare into my empty trophy case.
I sold my race car and abandoned my life,
Then ended it all with a black checkered knife.
Love BugGet out of my body!
Get out of my brain!
I don't understand this pulse
that's shooting through my veins.
I shudder and I shake
when I look into your eyes.
I know this can't be love,
for I have played that game of lies.
You've planted some bug
inside of my soul.
It burns when I see you,
ablaze like hot coal.
It links us together;
we're never apart.
You dug into my skin
and live deep in my heart.
Room B108'I love him' she repeated
while pacing about the room.
She trembled, looking at the ground
in her apparent gloom.
'I love him. Yes, I love him...'
Her brown eyes were full of fear.
Three more times she said the words
before she shed a tear.
Her footsteps, ever plopping on the floorboards,
kept a rhythm.
She seemed shocked, but also frightened
because she was in love with 'him'.
She ignored the crash she heard outside
of the apartment door,
then she slumped over to the closet
and sunk slowly to the floor.
The apartment door flew open;
she sprung back up in surprise.
A man in black entered and stood,
staring into her eyes.
He shoved her against the wall,
thrusting upon her neck a knife.
He paused, waiting for her last words
before ending her life.
A sob escaped her mouth.
She stared into his eyes of blue.
Before he slit her throat,
she stuttered the words- I love you.
Her body crashed onto the floor.
The man realized his fears.
He wept in room B108,
the room of blood
dead dog julyI.
the summer heat lays limp in the city’s lap,
breathing long oppressive breaths.
it does not even lift its lolling head
to bark out hoarse indignancy
when a strange man brings the mail.
there might be heavy rain today,
brought by some swollen, murmuring cloud.
the world will whirl and howl,
then settle down,
to die a little more.
o, quickly, love,
press your back against the wall in fear
as the universe spreads her arms and
shuts her eyes
and starts to summon the end of all things.
come with me
to the place of windows full of speechless afternoon
hot windy whispers of half-formed solutions and resolutions,
sweltering sunlit meadows we’ll wander and then forget.
o quickly, love,
let’s to the season of forgetting
and unwind all of our harshest memories
and fill the universe’s mouth
with mute cotton.
i’ll whisper these words to you some evening
with all my exigency in the hand i rest on your arm—
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